Friday, October 17, 2008

OMG What a Drama Queen!!!!!

For this post i need to start at the beginning! well at least yesterday morning! OH! and a deep breath!

I was having such a good day, finished making a skirt, went shopping, pottered around home looking forward to Jai's birthday party that evening, then @ 3:30pm everything went SKEWIFF!!! It was hot and i was flaking so decided to have a nana nap, it was too hot to sleep and i heard my housemate (HM) come home, I jumped up and must’ve looked completely stressed out (I was just hot (the air con hadn't been turned on coz i was waiting for the plumber to come and stop it leaking (I had previously paid him to fix it before but problem persisted!))) so HM agrees to jump up on the roof and have a look, even though he has ice melting in his car out front. we run around throw the ladder up he climbs up, turns the a/c tap on slightly then says he can't open the a/c, i tell him how and hw proceeds, one look and he says he doesn't know about those types of floats so he chucks the side panel back onto the a/c.

back inside and extra hot i turn on the a/c anyway, regardless of the leak and there is a terrible noise coming from the a/c that wasn't there b4, as i just had the whole thing fixed last January i waited till HM left b4 going to my room to cry over slack tradesmen. HM walks back in (which i really needed!) his dog was trying to escape so he runs out the back, brings her inside and leaves asking me to watch her till she forgets about him.

HM locks front door, i take Jess, his dog out my side door into an enclosed area full of beautiful garden beds, i start watering plants, dogs and the goat. I take the hose and fittings out the front to catch the a/c run off and divert it to my Jacaranda trees out the front.

I go back inside and then decide for some strange reason to go out my studio door, the key i normally leave beside it is no longer there so i go back to the kitchen table where my keys always sit and they aren’t there.

I look in the usual places, can’t find them! Look in unusual places, can't find them! by this time i am nearly mentally broken down!

I leave my house through my side door leaving it unlocked, go over mums house and after her seeing my face i break down sobbing like a child because the universe is picking on me! god i feel like a drama queen writing this.

I feel a bit better for telling mum so she comes to help me look for the keys and i call HM thinking he has definitely picked them up on his way out, he says no!

HM turns up on the doorstep minutes later, i immediately think he has found them and is returning them, but no he has brought over a psychic friend, she starts telling me "white fabric" so i frantically look through every piece of white fabric i can find, no keys!

psychic friend is telling me i need a mini trampoline so i can lift the energy around my head, i tell her i already have one and it doesn't work, she says she wants to buy one, i give her mine, can’t think of a price so she can take it and we will talk about it later.

she leaves with mini tramp. HM also leaves, mum and i keep looking for keys!

HM returns with $50 which is more than i expected but who is complaining! keep looking for keys!, I climb up onto the roof and open the a/c, one of the metal rods that holds the pad in has come loose and is leaning into the barrel which is making the clicking sound, I straighten the rod back to it’s original position and replace the side, completely fixing the bad sound. The house is starting to cool down and so am I slightly!

I have a shower to cool off and chill out, go back over mums and start retracing my footsteps in my head, no luck. by this time Jai's party has already started and my head is hurting so badly so i go to get some really expensive dark chocolate to pick me up, me and dad eat most of it, the three of us listen to a few good songs to distract me without success. by this time i am convinced the keys are in HM's car so will get them in the morning. HM has gone to Jai's party so i decide to clean the kitchen and cook something decident. I notice that my plastics cupboard stinks so i get some towels to sit on and start piling everything out.

Two hours later i have scrubbed every cupboard in and out, cleaned all the light switches, gotten useless crap out of cupboards and am scrubbing the kitchen floor, having cooked some mini quiches.

HM thinks i am mad for spending a friday night cleaning, but it helped clear my head.

had a descent sleep so this morning i woke up and started doing things like washing and organising, the house looks pretty well spotless by 10am and i got confirmation that the keys definitely weren’t in the car. I am starting to think that perhaps someone just walked in and stole them and was planning to come back and raid the house later i am getting sad again!

I empty my handbag for the fifty millionth time and decide it needs a wash so and just walking to the laundry when HM (out the back) asks me if i think his dog may have eaten them, i say that she was just looking for him and not food and as i am right next to the pool table i stick my hand into the catcher hole and ruffle the balls, i hear a tinkle and pull out my keys, right in front of HM, we are both in shock!!!

In my frustration with tradesmen haze yesterday I must’ve thrown my keys onto the pool table and they must've swished down the hole without me noticing. I sms everyone who helped me and kick myself for the drama! Although if they had've gone down any other hole they would never be seen again!

.......... today continuing ..........

I decide to go down to check the mail and radio station, all is wel, but as i go to cross the road there is a "bright spark" in a car who patiently stops to let me cross the road in front of where he/she is turning, I stop to let it go and then all of a sudden two other cars are coming from each direction! i hurry across and the car hurries around the back of me, and we all survive! I look to the sky and think about saying yet another bad phrase and decide instead to simply yell ""BLESS ME!!!"" I pull out my keys and open my PO Box and there is only one letter in there, it is my bank cheque from Heather Lawrence in London who has just bought two of my paintings. I start crying again! I don't know if i am up or down or in or out!

Finally i am an official professional artist, (other than sales to family and friends of course)

I decide that whatever else bad that might happen to me today or ever just will not affect me at all! I call mum to tell her the good news and bump into a close friend and we jump around in a circle with excitement! I feel like i won the lottery! or something like that anyway! finally i am celebrating something that comes from so deep inside me and it is all my own work too! here i go crying again but now it might be from the glass of icy gin and lemonade i indulged in whilst writing this!

I have a bottle of Riccadonna in the fridge for later because as this is a special occasion i want to celebrate it right and spectacularly!

If Heather was here right now i would have a drink with her and hug her so tightly!!!

I will just have to save up and travel to London to see her and celebrate!

So here are the paintings Heather now owns…

Name: Anita Seery

Title: Serenity

Medium: Oil on canvas

Canvas Size: 1m x 1m

Created: July 2008

In this painting the use of layers of deep ultra marine blue gives a sense of timelessness, the painting has the calm of dawn but the clarity of midday and a warmth of dusk. Symbolically the boat is anchored but instead of straining at its capture it is at rest, happy to wait until it is called upon for it’s next journey

The boat size here is important also, dinghies are commonly used as amateur recreational vessels as opposed to professional outfits. One gets the feeling that the boat is waiting patiently for it’s oarsman to come and start a peaceful days fishing. In life that oarsman could be a friend, lover or companion to share an experience with.

Name: Anita Seery

Title: Equanimity

Medium: Oil on canvas

Canvas Size: 1m x 1m

Created: July 2008

In this painting the use of warm orange, reds, yellows and blues express a peaceful wholesome restful passage. The direction of the boat towards the setting sun implies a happy ending to come and finally the lack of anyone controlling the boat shares a feeling of freedom in ones life to go wherever the water may take us.

Friday, August 1, 2008

Career Descisions

Well I need a job! I'm sick of being broke and bored! I have nearly finished throwing out ll the crap from my house which means that i will be twidling my thumbs in no time at all!

So i have picked a new career and the training to become acredited is quite expensive, $3000.00 in fact not including accomodation while i study. So i have been thinking of ways to raise the cash needed. Most likely i will have to sell one or two of my precious guitars which makes me feel so sad! I love them all as if they were my own babies.

But who really needs six guitars anyway? one has been sitting in the neighbours cupboard for over a year and it's accesories have been scatterred over such a big area. So i've decided it will be the first one to go lol! :(

The next descision in the pursuit of this training is to wait the three months till the next entry point which might allow me to find extra cash and perhaps somewhere cheap to live while i study

Can you all cross your fingers for me :)

Achieving Small Goals

Today i set myself three tasks to complete...

First give myself the afternoon off... done!

Second Do ten pushups... done!
although i used my knees but i really did try hard!

and thirdly... Google myself... done!
I found this site lol
It reminded me to write somthing on here :)

Swag rug

This is a simple pattern that i made to recover a diminishing quilt for mum. It is meant to go into a swag so i used darker colours. I really like the way it turned out.

Australiana Quilt

I have finished making a single bed quilt, it took roughly twelve hours straight. It started last week when i read a website that said you should keep your sewing machine clean at all times so i cleaned it and got inspired.

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

My Patchwork

This is Mums lounge which is the home of the two latest cushions I've made.

This is my quilt i made using fabric from all old clothes of my childhood. I also made three cushions out of left over squares.

Here are all the cushions i have made collectively. they look great.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Who Am I?

Who am i?

What is my identity?

Has my identity been stolen?

Have I lost passion?

Why am I not inspired?

Why do people make me lie to them instead of just giving me a break and accepting my instincts as real?

Where do I find myself again?

If I have lost confidence, why do I need it?

I had this thought today that I am thirty years old and I have experienced some pretty wonderful things in my time on earth. So now when I have an idea or simply just do something, having others tell me what I should do, or how I can do it better is really demeaning!

Isn’t half the process of growing learning from ones own mistakes and self developments?

It’s no wonder I am feeling adrift when my life seems never to be good enough for other people.

And “why should I listen to them?” I hear you ask! Well because I care about these people, yep the same ones that make me feel like crap, I end up avoiding because they are not real or relevant to where I am in my life right now.

We attract people that we need in our lives and right now all I need is a man to support me, I think I have found him, and the most troubling bit is that he has been there all along! I am too blind literally and figuratively and have been misguided by those around me, yep the same ones I claim to care about.

So back to the top again,

Who am I?

I’ve been googling “how to find ones identity” but there is nothing on the internet that I have come across yet to help me.

If I meander through this life just a little while longer will things finally fall into place?

I hope so!

Anita Seery's Passions Inspired

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Meekatharra, Western Australia, Australia
Thanks for visiting my blog, I hope you take the time to add your thoughts to it and inspire me some more. I hope also that you can find some inspiration from what i have to say. I am always asking people to tell me their dreams, often in hearing what other people want from life we can expand our own boundaries and achieve more than what we had ever wished for in life.